If you’re like me, you sit down in the morning and plan out your days, weeks, months, sometimes even full years out in the span of a few hours. Then you go about your day, sleep, wake up, and start over again. It doesn’t matter how many times you plan everything down to the tiniest detail, something always feels off. If this sounds like you, well then welcome to my world, I will be your guide on how to survive your obsessive planning.
Now believe me I am nowhere near perfect but, I am trying to make do with the things that I have been given. I have all the color coded pens and sticky notes, and the planner that is way too monochrome and pretty. I have all the knick-knacks and doodads that come with wanting to have the perfect planning system, but believe me I was still not prepare for life’s surprises.
I am here to tell you that it’s okay to not plan out every second of your day. That if those colors are different by just a shade that it’s still okay to use them interchangeably. Not everything has to be perfect, but if you want it to be that is alright too. Sitting on the couch across from my counselor today I realized something, I obsessively plan because my life has been a roller coaster of chaos for the most part. The need to be able to control just one thing, even if it was just the color of the pens and stickers in my planner, is enough to mean that I am constantly planning everything to gain control.
It’s okay to feel this way; I am realizing that slowly and I hope that you will too. Control is something that we as people in this world very rarely have over anything else. We walk through life, waiting for something to happen to us — not the other way around. If you think about it, that’s why we become good at our jobs, in school, or in relationships. We progress and improve ourselves to climb the ladder of success, to gain more control.
Those of us who have lived lives of chaos and unpredictability strive to be in control of something. For me, and maybe for you as well, that piece of control is given to me in the form of a planner. So go crazy with your stickers and pens, get the stamps that you want and yes, you do really need that new bookmark shaped like a heart. Let this be your outlet for that need to be in control of something, even if it’s small.
Don’t bash yourself for it because other people think that it’s too much or weird in any way. We can all be weird together in our planning mess, an organized chaos that is all our own.
Normal is overrated, be weird.